A friend commented on my last post about “the depths of my self-discovery” which I took as an incredible compliment, but also made me examine my motives. I guess there might be a fine line between self-promoting “sharing of self” and what I am trying to accomplish with this. I am “putting myself out there” [...]

The process of a song: write it; practice it; record the individual instruments and vocals; balance those individual parts so they mix together. Mixing is fascinating to me, and also where I find myself caught up in an endless quest for misplaced perfection. The tracks are there, played or sung. What has been recorded won’t [...]

Sometimes, I really need nothing. Nothing. No deep thoughts, no wanting to do something, no imaginary conversation in my head, no immediate pursuit. Simple nothing. Neurons resting, synapses not sparking, dendrites sagging in idleness. Brain taking a deep breath and kicking back on the porch. Desperately pursuing nothing. I can crumple up the internal to-do [...]

There was a point when I stepped back from my work and tried to look at it as if someone else had made it. What happened kind of shocked me. I realized that I wouldn’t particularly pay attention to it except for the fact that it was mine. I wouldn’t enjoy it, stop to look [...]

I look at something which I have made, and I ask myself if it really represents what went into it. Work, thought, experiences, skill, feelings, late nights, emotions. Does this truly reflect all of that? Is what I am looking at, or listening to, worthy of the effort? Is all of that visible and apparent [...]